The Inevitable Imposter Syndrome
Do you ever feel like you don't belong in your field of work, study or maybe even your hobby? Like you're just faking it until someone finds out and exposes you as a fraud? In the past 3 years now, I’ve been going through the motions between taking care of family (to which I love my family) and my craft as a photographer, and I say this in honesty, they have put a chokehold on my creative outlet causing me to put my work on ice. Although, I have been out shooting recently this past year up till now, the consistency hasn’t been the same. It’s been slower to do so and as a result, imposter syndrome has crept up in my life. The stress of both my sister and I taking care of our mom after surgery had me miss out on a couple of opportunities. It’s like I haven’t done enough.
In case you don’t know what imposter syndrome means, it is the feeling of being inadequate or incompetent, despite having evidence of your achievements and abilities. It can make you doubt yourself, fear failure, avoid challenges, and feel anxious or depressed. It can also prevent you from pursuing your goals or celebrating your successes. If you are like me at this moment, and you feel the walls are closing in on you, remember, you're not a fraud. Imposter syndrome is not a reflection of your reality, but a distortion of your perception.
What I have learned to do is to channel stronger affirmations. While it is difficult for me to go out capturing images, I pivoted into going to the gym at least three times a week. If I miss a workout, I make it up by going for a walk. For the past year and a half, the results have been much better Remind yourself of your strengths, skills, and achievements. Celebrate your successes, no matter how small or big. Say to yourself: "I am capable, I am competent, I am confident."
We all have negative thoughts. Whenever you catch yourself thinking that you're not good enough, smart enough, or qualified enough, stop and question those thoughts. Are they based on facts or feelings? Are they realistic or exaggerated? What evidence do you have to support or refute them? Sometimes by not asking ourselves these question, it will seem like you are gaslighting yourself. However, when you do ask these questions, it gives yourself time to think.
Embrace learning and growth. Don't let imposter syndrome stop you from trying new things or taking on new challenges. Instead, see them as opportunities to learn and grow. Don't be afraid to make mistakes or ask for help. Remember that everyone struggles at some point, and no one knows everything. Be curious, be humble, and be brave.
